Folks wondered Styles P was not onstage during the Bad Boy anniversary performance at the BET Awards last month.
The Bronx, N.Y., rapper revealed in a Instagram post Sunday that his daughter committed suicide last month.
“I seldom speak on my personal problems and i normally express my pain through music but today I’ll share a little with you last month my lovely wife and I lost a daughter and my son lost a sister,” he wrote.
“My baby girl took her life and t are not any words to spell out the day to day pain we need to endure.”
Styles P described the tremendous pain he still feels but also said how, for quite a long time, he put a disproportionate number of his energy into chasing success and making money.
His daughter’s suicide has made him put things in view.
“I happen to be pursuing the dollar bill since I was 12 years old I hustled I worked legal occupations as well as manage[d] to make my fantasy of making it as a rapper come true,” he described.
“I ‘ve popped bottles before it was the move to make, I’ve possessed beamers, benzos, rovers, trucks but I can really tell you don’t none of that [s-t] add up or equal to love!!” the rapper said.
Diana Ozemebhoya Eromosele is a staff writer at The Root along with the creator and executive producer of Lectures to Beats, a Web series that features expert guidance with scarily insightful folks.